Gotta write before I forget

Okay, so the "nice" streak is way over. I have been told many times since last Tuesday how I am too fat, a loser for not having a "real" job, and yelled at for locking the door incorrectly. Those are just a summary because I don't remember very many details. I would probably lose my mind if I let myself dwell on stuff he says to me. I also had my credit card taken away because I had to buy stuff to make guacomole for a BBQ on Easter Sunday. Then he tells me that I need to read the Bible and be a woman of God, and not talk back to him or make him angry. How crazy is he? What about him? How come he doesn't read the Bible? Don't I deserve a God-fearing man? Why was I permitted to go through with this whole marriage? I can't figure out if I am being punished for something or if God has just forgotten about me.